Too long.... hmmm

Time is a funny thing, right when you think that you have it under control turns out you don't.
so you sit and try and find just when you lost it all. funny think is I don't remember ever really having it.
It has been a long time sense I've been here, went to Snow College for a little bit found some "friends" only to find they left with the once winter came. broke my heart really but what can I say its normal my fault for I am reserved (so my twin cousin says) but I think he is wrong, I think I'm too reserved and can't get over the fact that when ever I think I have found a true friend they flee from me as soon as I start trusting them. Witch is why I started to rely more on what I can't see or what I can't have. There are very few people who really understand what you say to them. well at least this is how I see things and truly I hope I'm wrong, but more and more people show they don't trust and with that it shows the disrespect of today society. We get stuck looking for someone who will listen and understand and yet still respect you fully. one day all the lies that people tell just to get what they want will come unveiled and they will see them selves for what they truly are.